David's Tangled Thoughts

Luke had an interesting post that I had to copy. Write something about someone. I don't know if it was the original intent but as Luke had also observed, it turns into a kind of Post Secret type of post. You are my star, my guiding light. Where you go, I have no shame following. You continuously make wrong choices that hurt those around you. As much as I want to give you up, I can’t. I love you. I used to think I was superior to you. You have humbled me. I now look up to you and realize that you were a success all along. You were the first to befriend me. For that, I will always be grateful. Now, when I think of you, I think, “Where did I go wrong?” Just like that song. I used to wonder if I could have done anything that would have helped you. The answer is no. I thought you and I were friends in high school. When I saw you last summer, you barely said anything to me. What a shame, I had so much I wanted to talk to you about. I’d rather talk to your brother now. You reminded me s

That sign has been hanging over my desk for a little over two years now. I put it up there shortly after I had broken down and finally admitted to myself that I was gay. I felt that if I didn’t tell anyone, I would soon go back into self-denial. At the time, the only person that I felt I could come out to lived up in Mount Pleasant which was hours away. Sara once told me that if a certain friend of hers (not me, by the way) ever came out, she would still be friends with him. So I contacted her and said that I was going to come up and see her and that I had something that I had to tell her. The 26th was the day that I was going to do it. Since it was a couple of days away, there was still a chance that I could change my mind about the whole thing. I wrote a big 26 on a piece of paper and stuck it above my computer to get me to commit. In the early morning hours of the 26th, I borrowed my mom’s car and made the trip up north where I finally told the first person that I was gay. I made a

Two years ago, I beat myself up and resolved to tell someone why. Two years. What do I have to show for it? More than what I had then.

I have donated blood only once and I lied in order to do it. According to the American Red Cross , I am ineligible to donate blood because I have lived in Europe for longer than six months. Therefore, I am at risk for Variant Creutzfeld-Jacob Disease or Mad Cow Disease. You are not eligible to donate if: From January 1, 1980, through December 31, 1996, you spent (visited or lived) a cumulative time of 3 months or more, in the United Kingdom (UK), or From January 1, 1980, to present, you had a blood transfusion in an any country(ies) in the (UK)… You were a member of the U.S. military, a civilian military employee, or a dependent of a member of the U.S. military who spend a total time of 6 months on or associated with a military base in any of the following areas during the specified time frames *From 1980 through 1990 – Belgium, the Netherlands (Holland), or Germany *From 1980 through 1996 – Spain, Portugal, Turkey, Italy, or Greece There was a recent story of a blood shortage in th

Temperatures climbed above the freezing point the other day bringing us out of the sixth longest cold stretch in recorded history. Global warming, my ass. As always, click on the pictures for a larger version. I headed up to St. Joseph and the Lake to see what the view was like. I had been to Lake Michigan during winter only once before. I remember that I couldn't tell where the beach ended and the water began. I certainly didn't like the idea of walking along the ice. If I was going to go through, who knew how deep that water would have been. I walked up on a cliff of ice. Based on the beach walls, I knew that I was standing about five feet above the sand. In the picture above you can see how much of a drop there is. And I'm certain that there is still a ways to go until you'd hit the bottom. I felt like I was in the arctic searching for the Fortress of Solitude. (Is that it on the horizon?) Looking towards Chicago. If you look carefully, you can see the light

I don't normally do crossword puzzles. I hate asking for help on them but I did do one yesterday and I felt smart. If you are stuck on this Sunday's Fox Trot here are the answers. That's right, I didn't think any of you needed them. Across: 1. Koi 4. WA 6. Gump 8. In 9. St 10. Ugly 12. Feral 14. Zits 15. It 17. OT 18. Eons 20. OS 21. PGE Down: 1. Kgs 2. Outfits 3. IM 4. Willing 5. Any 7. Purse 11. GA 13. ET 14. Zoo 16. Tse 19. Op

Happy Birthday Herb ! I'd send you a gift but I don't have enough information to stalk track you down. So I'll just wish you a great year ahead instead.

I had to stay late at work to get a couple things completed so it was going to be a while before I could catch dinner at home. To save time, I went to Fazoli’s . Fast food Italian—gotta love it. I go up to the counter and I am about to order. The manager there, Adam, is at the register and he gives me this look. Kinda like how a scam artist has the I’ve-got-a-sucker face. “Would you like a bottomless bowl for $3.99?” Excuse me? Does it look like I am the kind of person that would come in and eat as much as possible? Wait… don’t answer that. “Uh, no. I’d like a number two please.” I grab my chicken parmesan and head to my table insulted. It wasn’t the guy’s fault really. It is his job to suggest the specials. But do I really fall into the target customer group? Probably. I am a big guy but c’mon, he made more money off my #2 order than he would have from that bottomless bowl offer. When I was in high school, I probably would have taken him up on that offer. I would eat a

Was anyone else excited to see Scotty back in Brothers & Sisters ? I was upset when he and Kevin broke up earlier in the season. I can understand why but, c'mon... I like Scotty. I definitely don't like the new guy. Why the hell does Kevin have to screw things up for himself? Check this site out.

Senator Barak Obama has announced his candidacy for the presidency the other day. I was listening to a live broadcast of Sen. Obama’s speech and was growing more impatient with each passing second. Like most speeches that I hear, it was full of empty promises regarding education, poverty, health care, blah, blah, blah. It’s the same crap over and over again. I have reached the point where I want to surgically remove the vocal chords of every person in congress until they can finally put our money where their mouths are. It is still early for the 2008 presidential election, but the field of candidates for both parties so far is not impressive. I’m not even sure who is really in this race yet. Who do we have for republicans so far? Arizona Sen. McCain , Massachusetts Gov. Romney , New York City Mayor Giuliani ? And the democrats? Illinois Sen. Obama , New York Sen. Clinton , and North Carolina Sen. Edwards ? In general, I favor governor candidates. I think that the governorship

There a few books that I remember when I was a kid but some stand out in my mind such as Shiloh, A Wrinkle In Time, Where the Red Fern Grows , The Indian in the Cupboard, and Bridge to Terabithia . I was at the movies last night watching Epic Movie. (Don’t see it. It sucks.) I haven’t been to the theater since Casino Royale and really haven’t been paying attention to the upcoming releases. Wonderland has a wall of posters advertising what future movies will be coming. One of them was Bridge to Terabithia. Bridge to Terabithia and Where the Red Fern Grows carries a special place in my heart. I absolutely love the books. However, as much as I love them, I avoid them. I’ve got copies of all the other books that I mentioned, but not those two. They were the two books that almost brought me to tears in class. If something is powerful enough to tug at my emotions like that, I brand it dangerous and do my best to bury it. I wonder if an author would take it as a compliment if I w

Fergie must have aced her spelling tests back in elementary.

BBC World this evening headlined the story regarding a friendly fire incident during the opening the operation to oust Saddam Hussein in 2003. Two weeks into the war, two A-10 pilots attacked a British convoy killing Lance Corporal Matty Hull. The story reported that a video of the attack had been leaked. The video had been classified by the U.S. Department of Defense but a copy had been given to the U.K. Ministry of Defense. A coroner for Mr. Hull’s death lashed out against the MoD for withholding this video. The Ministry of Defense claims that they received the tape from the Americans under the condition that they would also keep it secret because of possible security issues. From what I’ve seen on the BBC, there was nothing on that video that I can imagine as being classified information. It is plainly evident, however, that this whole situation is embarrassing for the United States. I’m inclined to believe that the only reason why the DoD chose to keep this under wraps was

It's bitter around these parts and it's not because of the cold.

Anyone work in retail? I'm trying to figure out how the owner comes up with these ridiculous goals. My favorite was his anger over our store not making goal last month which we figured to be 60% over last year. What store increases their sales that much? I pulled out last year's file and compared last years numbers with the daily goals for this month up to the 14th. I have shifted the numbers to sync up with the day of the week and for the holiday but this is what I got: TH-2/1:...+2% FR-2/2:...+4% SA-2/3:...+3% SU-2/4:...+11% MO-2/5:...+5% TU-2/6:...+8% WE-2/7:...+26% TH-2/8:...+6% FR-2/9:...+49% SA-2/10:..+15% SU-2/11:..+21% MO-2/12:..-11%* TU-2/13:..+55% WE-2/14:..+33% Does that make sense to anyone? I swear he pulls numbers from the deepest reaches of his ass. *Yeah, you read that right. It's a negative.