Sunday, April 19, 2009

Always Hope

I made some quick calculations this morning to see about making a spur of the moment trip to Minnesota. I had just received a message from a friend that he tested positive for HIV. I cannot even begin to imagine what must be going through his head or what he is feeling. I called him and he picked up and asked, "how are you doing?". Sly guy had already turned the table on me because that was my line! I suppose that when you get right down to it, we are all biting our nails hoping and praying that the next results will indicate this first one to be a false positive.

I honestly don't know how to react. When I called I was constantly fumbling because everything that was coming out of my mouth just didn't seem to convey what I truly wanted to convey. But there were things that I wanted to express too but had to make sure I suppressed them. I dunno...the whole situation is just a big fuck up.

All I want to do right now is hug him.

3 comments:

QuakerJono said...

I am so sorry for your friend. I could go on about how amazing advancements have been made with HAART therapy and it's not a death sentence anymore, but there's no denying that this is a big thing to have to deal with regardless.

I hope your friend does get a different diagnosis from the ELISA, but even if it is what it is, I hope he has good friends around him such as yourself to get him through the next couple of months until he comes to grips with a new reality.

Good luck, David. I'll keep you and your friend in my prayers.

TardisGirl said...

I'm very sorry to hear about your friend. Prayers and good wishes for both of you.

David said...

Thank you, you two, for praying for someone you don't know. Thank you.